Never Ending Pasta Bowls!

So Melissa, Kayla, Colden, and I went to Olive Garden today! It was delicious! We got never ending pasta bowls, and stopped at two bowls of salad, two baskets of bread, and two pasta bowls! It was fun. The babies did well, considering! We also got dessert to go, and I am eating mine now! It is a lemon cake! Yum! When we got in the car on the way home we were listening to "It's Peanut Butter Jelly Time!!!" It was awesome. It was a really good evening! It is good to have friends close by! I can't wait for my best friend to be back! SOON SOON! About 2 months! YAY!

Time really has flown by. I hope I remember this when we start our next deployment! I am proud of myself for doing it! I think next time, unless we have two babies, I might leave Colden somewhere and get a part time job, just to pick up some extra money! We will see how things go!

I am waiting online for Clifford right now. He was suppossed to meet me here, but he may have got tasked to do something, or the guy who owns the internet is using it!

Well, I love my boys and can't wait for them to love eachother like I love them!

things i say on a daily basis-

GOOD MORNING wittle man!
oh! you are sooo cute!!
stinky boy!
no screaming!
hey! get out of there!
no way jose!
uh-oh.
sleepy baby!
oh! you are sooo cute!
i love you so much!
peekaboo!
baby hungry?

thats about it!. my vocabulary gets smaller everyday!

i wish............

i wish today were the last day of October, 2008!
i wish, my husband and i were sleeping in the same bed tonight.
i wish plans would stop falling through.
i wish the house could be deep cleaned while i sleep tonight, and organized.
i wish........................

sometimes, wishes don't come true. but, i am still going to go to sleep, and wake up tomorrow and start a new day with my son. soon enough, cliff will be home to share it all with us. i just hope he doesn't even know what he is missing.

Look at this cute boy!!

today is not tomorrow, or yesterday!

well here i am. more than 7 months later than the last time i wrote. my bouncing baby boy is just that. he is all over the place and so amazing. my wonderful husband has been gone just over 7 months. we have 5 to go! it really has gone fast. only because i am constantly busy with the baby! Colden is an amazing baby and a very happy one. he is crawling EVERYWHERE pulling up on EVERYTHING and walking with a walker. he had 2 teeth on the bottom! we have been going to the pool and traveling around. he has been to Oklahoma and Kansas, and will go through several more states next month! he is a traveling boy! and he gets to go to Ohio in October, just before Daddy comes home!

Oh Daddy! Can't wait to see that big guy! I love him more everyday! We get to talk very regularly and it is wonderful! My boys are my life!!! The coolest guys in the world!!!

Just thought I would update!

after the leaving

well, i have only written once. but here i go again. since the last post i have become a mother and my husband left for iraq. so needless to say, a lot has changed. colden was born on November 2nd at 7 lbs 2 oz. i was in labor for 36 hours and then had an emergency c section. colden was trying to come out face up, and got lodged under my pelvis bone. it was awful, but thank God for modern medicine, because both of us could have died. colden is just like his dad- he makes me fall in love with him again every time i look at him.
cliff left when colden was a week old, but at least he got to meet the sweet little guy. he hasn't said anything, but i know it is really hard for cliff to be away from us. he is being strong though.

my mom has been here since cliff left last sunday, and is leaving tomorrow. my mother in law is coming back tomorrow to stay a couple of days. i am started to feel cabin fever a little bit. there are things i could be doing at home, but i just want to sit here and stare at the little guy when we are here, or sleep when i can. i am breastfeeding, and it is going very well. everyone has so much bad stuff to say about their experience with breastfeeding, but SO FAR it is going very well. it may be because i was so determined.

i miss my husband so much, but colden takes ALL of my time, so it goes very fast. i realize there will be bad nights and good nights, but i REALLY hate the bad nights because they are so depressing! it is a good bonding time with the little guy because it is just he and i, but it makes me miss my husband that much more. being in the bedroom without him there... :( it is just no fun! i have a long way to go. but i am taking it one day at a time!

ok thats enough for now. more later!

i love both of my CBJs!

introduction to start

well i guess i better start out with an intro. since my last blog, i have gotten married, moved back to texas, got a bun in the oven, got out of the army, deepened my relationship with God, and therefore with those whom i love, and am now the happiest woman in the world. the little guy, Colden, is due ANY DAY but is being stubborn, and wants to stay in as long as he can! he better hurry up though, cause his daddy leaves very soon for another deployment. :( this time we can't go together. i get to stay back here and be an army wife, which is a WHOLE NEW LIFESTYLE! i am pretty scared of raising Colden by myself for the first year, but at least he will not know the difference. poor Cliff has to go and leave us behind! it will be hard for him, and for me to watch him go. everyday waking up to see my best friend by my side is so amazing, and i will miss him so much! i don't understand how anyone else in this world could be happy having a husband that isn't mine. no one else would work for me. our relationship is amazing. i guess working so closely together for 4 years really let us know that we could get along. the amount of love makes my heart want to explode on a daily basis. i can't imagine what it will be like when i love him and his son at the same time! i look foreward to meeting the little guy, and don't want to be away from the big guy, but one of us has to do it.